I Am Willing…

This past year, I became a truly advanced yogi. I know you’re jealous, you’re like “what does he have that I don’t have?” And don’t worry, I’m going to tell you. Though, trust me, you don’t want it. Here it is. The secret: I have wrestled the asanas of death, loss, impermanence and transformation. And lost. Almost everything. Almost… but not quite. I survived…

Right when the morning came when I thought I couldn’t go any further; that I would surely drown and the earth would swallow me whole; when my constitution felt like it was going shatter… When I was at my absolute lowest after a year mired by extreme loss: my two maternal grandparents and my dad. And all of that coinciding and colliding with my sister’s painful divorce and my ‘top surgery’ (a sole ecstatically victorious life achievement awkwardly placed in the midst of all of this which is no stranger to its own complications), getting kicked out of our apartment, living like nomads for a few months, to then dissolving my own life partnership just as the year was coming to a close. My family reduced to its bare bones. Right when that morning came, when I felt the closest I’ve ever been to wondering what I was doing here- the cavalry came to the rescue in the shape of three amazing friends.

Not just friends, they were also long time students who happened to be in class on that day. A class I barely survived teaching. These three, amazing individuals invited themselves over that afternoon and pulled me out of the deepest muck of my life with their sweetness and senses of humor. As they packed the remaining pieces of my heart into random containers and stacked them in the stairwell, they made me laugh hysterically through my tears. Not a pretty site- ugly laughing through your ugly crying. They managed to turn something soul crushing into something light hearted and funny- into tangible possibility. They showed up and helped me when I really needed it and I cannot begin to express my gratitude.

And yet, as I look back on this bleak past year, all I see are moments such as these. I see a beautiful sprinkling of every single kindness and gesture, offer, place to stay, text, phone call, gift, meal, ear, song, visit, tea, invite, dance party, dress up, karaoke, packing, moving, lifting, fussing, managing, handling…

And more than ever, it has brought me to my knees in humility. So grateful for this practice that has brought us together. But honestly, mostly grateful for each of you. A community vibrant and alive with kindness, love, acceptance, sweetness, cussing and amazing humor… You are such a great reason to get out of bed in the morning! I hope you know that. I simply would not have survived this year without you.

So thank you, thank you, thank you. Not only for your discipline and willingness in the studio, but for your willingness to let your hearts be touched. For your tenderness. You are truly excellent humans and I am constantly in awe of you. If there is any way I can serve you better this coming year, let me know. I have lots of ideas and more time than I’ve had in the past. So let’s dive into our work and continue the joyous, wild adventure of being there for each other. My mantra for the new year- I am willing.

 

Happenings:

OFF THE GRID INTO THE DEEP
Nuqui, Colombia
Feb 18-25

***Only two spots left.*** Whether you want to surf the hammock or the water or simply just enjoy full practices and a book, it is the best space I know to let my guard down, process and heal. It also gets you out of NYC the coldest week of the year. Come with us!

Master Class
With Miles Borrero

The Funky Om, Long Island, NY
Wednesday Jan. 23, 6pm
(followed by Wednesday Night Kirtan)

Miles will be teaching a delicious, smoldering master class and joining the kirtan that evening. Come play!

MASTER CLASS
With Isaac Peña and Miles Borrero

Naam Yoga, NYC
Saturday, Dec. 15, 4-6PM
$45

Third month and going strong! These tend to sell out, so if you want to come, email me to reserve your spot. Join Isaac and Miles as they combining their super powers into an awesome yoga baby. You won’t want to miss this!

To sign up, email Miles.

Stoking The Fire Within

With Miles Borrero
JP Centre Yoga
Saturday Feb. 2, 1-3pm
$35 before 1/27 $40 after

Through select pranayama (breath work), bandha (locks) and smoldering physical mandala (circular) practices we will explore the fire element to stoke our internal heat. Not only does this take advantage of the body’s natural internal heating system but it helps to build a steadier base for self confidence and a greater sense of self. This fire practice will move slowly and with pulsation, enabling you to access nooks in the body that are otherwise difficult to reach and will warm up the whole body slowly and fluidly form the inside out. Ultimately leading you toward a state of sattva – sweetness and ease. 
Deep Listening

With Miles Borrero
JP Centre Yoga
Sunday Feb. 3, 1-3pm
$35 before 1/27 $40 after

Ancient yogis understood that our inability to listen to our own hearts makes us incapable of listening to the world around us. Nada yoga, the yoga of sound, explores just that. In these two hours, we will work with seed sound or bija mantra throughout the asana practice as a way to ring or activate certain chakras. We will move with the breath, adding bits of sound to the movement in specific moments as a tether into the deeper realms of our consciousness. For it is sound, the ancient yogis believed, which connects us clearly and seamlessly to the highest parts of our subtle body and awareness. At an historic time when it has become evident how great the lack of and need for mutual understanding truly is, these practices teach us how to carefully listen within, identifying the underlying subtleties of our internal system. From there, we can better listen and respond in a more integrated way to the world around us.**  This workshop will conclude with a Yoga Nidra (deep relaxation or yogic sleep) and meditation to experience the quiet space from which all sound is birthed and all intention is born.

CranioSacral

Touch, of course can also be the most healing thing, respectful and wanted. If you would like to come in for a session email me and let me know. Let’s make it happen.